What Do You Do When Someone Outgrows Their Nickname?...Make Turtle Soup

Hello beautiful souls, so I promise you that "So I Brought a Bouquet of Forget-Me-Not's to a Gun Fight" will one day soon be finished and be one of my most precious creations to date, but I've still not yet perfected it, and I do hope that you'll hold on just awhile longer for me to add the finishing touches. But as we all know, life does happen whether or not we are ready for it, and I'd like to touch on that tonight.
So I was brought up to speed on a certain situation that I was completely oblivious to (and I guess maybe that might be part of the problem), but an awkward soul who I hold close to my heart informed me earlier today that they'd out grown me. Which is beautiful and sad all at the same time. Because when I met this lovely soul, it was easy to see that they were so troubled, as are all of us at times, and I felt as though I could help this individual (let's call this soul "Turtle") see it's true beauty. So I then set out on a journey with this awkward individual and I must say that I've been most pleased with the growth and development that we both have forced each other to go through (because I would be proving that I've learned nothing at all throughout this whole process, if I failed to acknowledge that I've also been a student on this journey as well). But to see how open and free Turtle was becoming in such a short a time gave me the greatest feeling in the world. I don't believe that she is aware, but I would brag about her to everyone I came across, I couldn't even explain how happy it made me to see my turtle cracking out of her shell. But as time went on a mentor of mine informed me of the unhealthy ramifications that might come from smothering a student with too much praise and potentially "stunt" (lol, funny how many times that words come up tonight) their growth. So I slowly became distant and allowed my turtle to mingle and develop deeper relationships with the other itchy souls around her, but always keeping a watchful eye from afar. Now we've had our disagreements about how things went down, but honestly that's neither here nor there. Because after our conversation I came home to write this post but in between the two I happen to stumble across "The Soloist" on TV, and it's almost as if I was suppose to watch it before I wrote this because my response on this post would have been completely different had I not. But as we all know, everything happens for a reason and when it's suppose to happen. And the movie showed me that trying to change a person and bring them out of what you feel might be a bad situation can often times back fire on you if you let your ego get involved. But being someones friend and being supportive is the one way you can ensure that it's a purely selfless act. And I should've done more of that. You told me that I need to take my head out of my ass, and you know what you're probably right, because as much helping as one tries to do, if it's not coming from a pure and genuine place then it's really for nothing. And you've taught me that, I'm sorry that our relationship had to be the guinea pig for me to learn that lesson, but I honestly do believe that I've discovered the meaning of truly being selfless. And by no means do I believe that I'm there, but I've certainly gotten a glimpse of it, and I'm slowly but surely working my way towards it (and that really all we can ask of the world, is to try). I've had nothing to gain from this blog really other than clearing my mind of thoughts that are constantly cluttering it, and I genuinely am happy when readers send me messages telling me how my words have helped them through their day or out of a current situation. And sure if that strokes my ego slightly then so be it, but you know what? none of us can ever escape our egos, all we can do is try to keep it in check, and I've been making an honest attempt. So does it hurt me that you honestly believe that I've done no good for you over our entire relationship? Honestly yes it hurts me and makes me very sad, but I won't dwell on it too long because it's not my place to determine what another soul got out of an interaction, all I can focus on is what I'm walking away with, and that's life lessons. All I can hope is that you do the same. I think the one truly sad thing about this whole situation is that we are two very stubborn itchy souls and it's so easy for the both of us to push people out of our lives and not look back twice. And that makes me sad because this could possibly be a life long game of whose gona crack first, but if that's the lesson we are to teach each other then I'm ready. You told me that you'd grown past my "words of wisdom", I hope that you don't really believe that, because if you do you will find that you miss a lot of great gems in life (I'm sure you wouldn't accept Adolph Hitler as one of your friends on Facebook, but the man has said some brilliant things in his lifetime. We can't control who god decides to let her wisdom flow through, please remember that). Although you may not much care for me much as a person that does not mean that there aren't still things that I can't teach you. You can learn from my mistakes and misfortunes. You told me that your evolution was inevitable, so that makes me happy and wish the best for you. Keep pushing forward cuz you'll always be my turtle no matter what.

Seasons come and go...

...but you're always in my heart

"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened" signing off,
till next time
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